life as the below average
i want to be a doctor.
my failing grade in orgo has made me so acutely aware of the fact that i want to do well not because of anything else rather than...i like it. the nucleophiles will attack, and it's okay because the electrons want to be taken away anyway. it makes sense. if only i could show it.
i met this boy.
and i told my mom about him, and my mom got so excited that she told my dad about him. and my dad got so frantic that he called me. from india. i didnt tell them that he might be a doctor too, but he doesn't like helping people.
i am a community service center first year representative.
helping others is very important. but i hope college does not turn out to be another high school with orgo as my physics, csc/circle k as my interact, and this boy as...someone else.
listening: rain
reading: organic chemistry, 4th edition
but i still can't climb the bed on the first try
why is time moving so weird?
i have been here long enough to fall beind two chapters in orgo and stay up until 5 am to write a paper, but i have not been here long enough to find a group of friends or a fellowship/church.
it is kind of strange, yet exciting, what college has to offer. i love being able to keep my door open and have people just stop by on their way to bed or whatever meeting. i am kind of intimidated by the fact that everyone here is SO amazing at everything and passionate about something. for example, there has been some intense bonding within my hall this week. so, one night, i came back and there was this talent showcase (not dance party). then, last night, i was asking some guy about his clothes, and he said, "would you like a brief history of neckware?" and thus launched into the evolution of the modern day tie and bowtie from the ascot. it was so sweet.
it's kind of disgusting that i have about 100 pages to read per night about the most random stuff. perhaps i shouldnt have taken such non-basic classes the first semester. now, i don't even feel like i'm going to class because i'm just learning about stuff that seems to have little relevance to the everyday. at the same time, it does, and that's what i'm learning about: the power that only virginal women have, the acoustics of the duke chapel, and how to pronounce words properly. it's just...going in pre-med, i thought there would be more of that sciencey thing. but, gee, i dont read even read for orgo, and i have no idea what i'm doing in the lab. i think my partner and i crushed a boiling stone instead of the substance because it wouldnt melt. and all i do at my job is run computer programs on the computer. so...stay tuned for next semester =)
someone motivate me to study. motivate != intimidate.
photo: spontaneous bassett3 bonding party. pie supplied by margie
listening: seventh heaven. i have slowly grown to hate this show. there is so much propaganda!
sunday night, i am trying to do my homework. this is what it's like
"In 710, in fact, the St Denis fair was already frequented by
omnes neguciantes aut Saxonis vel quascumquelibit nacionis, and in 753 there were
omnes necuciantes, tam Saxsones quam Frisiones vel alias naciones promiscuas." in other words, this is ridiculous.
